11:27a.m.; goodnight.

been really busy and tired ever since term 3 of school started, got a lot of stuff done which is really really good, completed my J1 equiv cert, was studying through the one week school break, das why i haven’t been able to keep up with the regular posting i had planned to do, really am sorry bout that. Term 4 is starting tmr cant imagine what it’d be like lul

haven’t written in a long time, i really want to write something, but i cant think of an interesting topic man

might be editing and posting something i wrote for the regional student competition last year. won me 4th place i think, writing about a controversial issue

today’s a PH. yay.

have a gud day folks. imma thinking of heading back to bed.

Hello November

“In Your Presence Is Fullness Of Joy.”

It’s been a month since my last post. time flies when you’re having fun. or not. Life hasn’t been as kind as it could be but well, this is life.

I’ve been really busy with school and a Bible Diploma course I’ve enrolled in and began in August Faith Bible Institute aka FBI. We’re about to complete my first sem in FBI and the 3 exams/tests have started, 1 of which we have already taken last week.
Re school, i’m headed to completing my J1 equivalent this year end and J2/ A levels hopefully by the end of next year. Seems like I have everything about my studies under control when in actual fact I don’t. I was faced with what seemed to me a major failure and oh well pretty much feel like a failure now.

November 5th was my dad’s birthday and 11th was my parent’s second decade of marriage. wished I had the means to make those 2 days an extra special one.

Nov 12th was school’s grad night, it was awhsum the quartet got together again, we sang His Robes For Mine and the day before the grad night, we learned our parts for another song, As The Deer. SuRPriSe me nothing, we did great. After grad night was over, we gathered together and suddenly there was a mass weeping. I mean it was justifiable, one of the girls was leaving the next day and we probably wouldn’t see her again soon. Then followed all the I’m gonna miss you Me too stay in touch okay forever friends don’t forget us be strong we love you and group hugs, wrong, much group hugs.

now. while most of the students school term is ending, I still have a lot of work to do. Ask me to describe how I am feeling this days in one word: Tired.

Okay. there’s so many things to be done, so many things going wrong, so many things that are so discouraging.

there’s no such thing as a separation between my family life and church life. No breaks, no breathers, no nothing. your reward is people leaving the church or people saying nasty stuff and I’m just here like okay, this is just great, won’t you guys just give me a break?!
Well it isn’t exactly true that the only reward is nasty things, I mean, there are people that encourage me in ways they don’t even know and I really appreciate those people. It’s just that sometimes the black spot on a white cloth is so easier to pick on then the rest of the clean cloth.
So when the moments come, when I am encouraged by so and so who has made known his or her desire to love and follow God, I take it to readjust my focus on the aim of my spiritual walk and the people around me with the same goal.
Constantly having to remind myself not to look at men, and look only to God.

to be honest, this feeling, it isn’t new. I’ve been through this before, and I know I’ll make it out cos there’s God.

 

on a more positive note, I had a great time at the #HomeTeamFestival2015 last Saturday

 having fun with the SCDF hats (some hansum random policeman)

 Your protector, My brother.    you may call me ma’am. (I think I actually got the mata look eh)
we’re stuck with each other forever

#5evasisters

Regional Student Convention 2015: Day 5 😭

Opened my eyes and wondered why the sun was already up, instead of the past few mornings where we got up before the sun did. I looked at my watch and jumped up in shock. 7am. Our roommate who was supposed to collect breakfast didn’t wake up. As the eldest student in that room, I got dressed and went to get breakfast for the room in her place and woke the rest up. we were slightly late for the last rally. During the rally time, it was awards after awards after awards. The results of the mixed quartet event were out and our names were called up: Ethan, Janelle, Jireh, and Joanna. And to our greatest surprise, we placed 2nd! Jan and I were screaming hahaha literally shocked cus we didn’t expect to be placed that high even after our stumbles.

   

 Our supervisor was at the other end of the stage waiting for us and Jan and I jumped into her hug as she told us how proud she was of us. 2nd place! We were thrilled, exhilarated, blessed. 

I was really eager about the photography awards because I knew the scenic photo I had entered was one of the finalists but I didn’t know which spot I had secured myself. When the results were finally read out, I found that I was the first place winner for the senior color-scenic category! The RSC experience couldn’t have closed better for me, winning a first place medal.

 this was my scenic picture, taken with my iPhone 4 😂
When the Reverend finally announced RSC 2015 officially closed, I felt a twinge of sadness, I was super gonna miss all of this. When rally was over, I took a few pictures with some new friends I had made over the 5 days but sadly, I didn’t manage to find all of them.

Nicole from LAP

Isabelle from LAP with Jan and I

Head prefect of All Saints AA, Jensen

Gem from LAP

We had to rush to change out of our uniforms, eat our lunch and then get our bags and luggages down to the lobby because our coach would leave at 1.15pm. I managed to make one last new friend at the last minute haha after bringing down our luggages and haversacks, we waited at the hotel lobby and this kid and I just struck up a conversation.

 Joshua from All Saints AA
We were all reluctant about leaving so early. why must the coach leave at 1.15? Can’t it be at 3 or 6pm? Man I’m gonna miss this all. Are you going for the next RSC? Hope to see you next year! 

The coach ride back to SG seemed really fast compared to when we were on the way to KL.

 We made one stop between KL and SG. And it was only 4.45pm when we stopped. Asking the guide how long more we were going to take before reaching SG, she replied much to our dismay, roughly one and a half hours more. Despite our disappointment, we still had to settle dinner. We went to the toilets first though, forewarned of the consequences of not answering nature’s call earlier in the bus with one of our guys having to jump around the coach trying to hold in his pee. Bumped into another RSC School contingent otw back to SG at the dinner stop. Made us feel better knowing we weren’t alone haha.

All too soon, we hit the customs and found ourselves back at SG. One of our guys thought he had lost his passport after leaving the SG customs but thankfully, he found it under his seat.

Most of us alighted at khatib mrt at about 7.30pm, back at where we first gathered to go to RSC. We said our goodbyes and sadly made our own separate ways to our separate destinations.

Personally, I felt sad cus after all this months of going to school and developing friendships, this was sort of the end of wearing the school uniform and seeing my school mates regularly, I mean, till the next time I participate in RSC again. In retrospect, I’m thankful to God for all the new experiences I had (this being my first RSC), meeting new friends that were super awesome, all the wins we made as individual students and as the whole school contingent. The messages were rather doctrinally sound though worship time wasn’t. And for all the ups, I’m also grateful for all the downs, when we got on each other’s goat when the pressure started building up, snapping at each other and the mistakes made during the process of preparing for this rather major event and during the RSC itself. Though I didn’t achieve what I wanted in some areas, I guess it’s not important what I have lost, but rather what I have gained. Although I got pretty exhausted and on the verge of crying at some points, I had loads of crazy fun those 5 days and I’m looking forward and starting to countdown to next year’s RSC!


   #RSC2016

Regional Student Convention 2015: Day 4

Woke up with a shock that it was the last full day of RSC. Breakfast was promised to be better but all they gave us was a piece of bread with butter and a piece of cake. Funny.
We gave up on the bread because the butter wasn’t good for any singing we were gonna do that day cus most of us had one singing event (For me, I only had my mixed quartet event left on Thursday).
 pre-photo-taking, with my roommates wearing the RSC shirt and school skirt.

First thing in the morning was photo-taking of the entire RSC team, participating schools, mincluding supervisors and sponsors. After that we split into our schools and took our own photos.  
 Jan and I changed into my school uniform because we had events later on and headed down to the music rooms where we did the piano accompaniment for two of our juniors who entered vocal solo events.

 practicing with the juniors before their solos.

 After they were done, we hung around and watched the dramatic dialogue event and one act plays by other schools. Had lunch and then it was finally time to do our last event of the RSC, the event that took the longest time to prepare and get ready for the actual day: Mixed Quartet

When it was our turn, we started off well. But towards the end, because the acoustics in the room was too great, our voices drowned out the audio recording, which made us, the quartet, lose our timing and the ATB lost it. At that point in the song, I had took over the S instead of singing A like I was since the start, and fortunately I didn’t stop even though the rest kinda did. Though it was a little messed up and it was obvious, what was more obvious to us was that the judges were impressed and so was the audience. We were grateful for that at least. After quartet was over, the guys in our quartet were visibly disappointed at the stumbling in the singing but Jan and I were in a stupid state of disbelief that all our events were over. We ran to our room, changed into the dress code we were told to wear and reported to our sponsor that we wanted to go out and get some stuff from the nearby ‘mall’ and because we had no more events, our sponsor allowed us to do so by ourselves, even though we weren’t supposed to. Haha. We went to reward ourselves with bubble tea and at first we were horrified that the a 24/7 squad member was queuing in front of us. The 24/7 squad were volunteers in the RSC, working behind the scenes and getting ready for events, helping the participants get along with their events etc. But fortunately, he didn’t seem to realize we were illegally on our own. We waved awkwardly trying to look confident and he acknowledged us with a curt nod, and we sighed in relief. no reporting to master control whew After we bought our drinks, we headed back to campus and found the small ensemble had just finished their event. As I saw the small ensemble emerge from the building, the leader was so relieved the next moment I found her hugging me. Funny but I guess we all have our ways of celebrating. Principal was proud of us all and took us for a treat. Ice cream for everyone! We were like little kids, excited about the ice cream. I had bubble tea earlier on and plus the ice cream, man, I was so full I skipped dinner haha.

That night rally,  our school placed 4th in the Group Bible Speaking. Our principal was the one who placed the medals around our necks and we felt a sense of achievement inside ourselves when we saw the pride in our principal’s eyes. All the months of hard work and rehearsals had indeed paid off.

  

  That night, we had a chips party in the girls room, and we initially planned to stay up as long as we could but ended up falling asleep as soon we lay our heads on our mattresses. We were all happy, tired, but a little sad that it was already the last night.

Regional Student Convention 2015: Day 2

Tuesday was the busiest day of the RSC for me. I had 5 (supposed to be 6, but one was pushed to Wednesday because of the time squeeze) events lined up for the whole day. I got up early again to collect breakfast from the hotel lobby (this time breakfast was provided by the RSC). Queued for 20 minutes with Jan to collect 6 boxes of rice for breakfast. The portion was so small it could be finished in 6 scoops, though I must admit it tasted good. My first event of the RSC was on Tuesday and it began at 8am: piano solo. Supervisor and sponsor prayed with Jan and I who were both competing in piano solo before we made our way to the music room. (Sadly I didn’t win a placing in my piano solo event, the event that I so badly wanted to win in. I didn’t memorize my piece like the others did so points were deducted for not memorizing and it pulled me down) Next event was Bible bowl, followed by group bible speaking. Went to watch the one act play teams act their skits before going for my piano duet event. When it was over, Mark, another fellow student, walked a few of us to the stadium about 15 minutes walk away from the campus to compete in badminton. I crashed out after my first match. I was matched against last years champion. My opponent was older than me but she was super nice. To be honest, I really wanted to win at least one match in badminton and my opponent literally gave me chances; she lobbed the shuttlecock all the time, I should have smashed but I’m so short I had to always wait for the shuttle to drop down to my level and by the time it dropped down, my opponent was well and ready to save my flimsy smash. When it was over, we laughed, shook hands. {the defeat isn’t bitter when the opponent is worth your time}

 Chatted around before rushing back to campus to compete in a second round of bible bowl because our two school teams were tied. After that, it was about dinner time and I was pretty wiped out. the hazy air in KL made my eyes sting and gave me a throbbing headache. Moments before Jan, our supervisor, and I stepped out of our room, the room’s phone rang. I picked it up and Kat’s voice on the other end spilled out,”Joanna, where are you? You and Jan need to practice at the rally hall because you guys got the piano duet command performance!” I screamed into the phone in surprise, shock probably hurt Kat’s ears Command performances were only reserved for the first place winners and it meant getting to go on stage and perform the winning event. Jan and I didn’t even eat dinner, there was no time for dinner and the adrenaline was running so high we didn’t feel hungry till late after night rally. We made our way quickly to the rally hall and had a run through of the programme with the Reverend before practicing for abit. At the second rally night at awards presentation, I went up to collect my HLCS Piano Duet medal. It felt really good to have a first place medal dangling from my neck.

  
 Had an illegal late night supper after lights out because my stomach was eating me for not having anything during dinner time. Our supervisor and sponsor was rather fed up with coming out of their room every 10 minutes to tell us to lower our volume from speaking in case the dean of residences on the prowl would catch the 4 of us out of bed 😂 soon enough, there was a knock on the door. Jan coolly remained where she was while the panicky 3 of us jumped into the toilet and shut the door behind us wiTHOuT tUrNInG ON THe LiGHts. Imagine the darkness we were in. And we were nervously giggling and trying to orientate ourselves in the utter darkness. One of the girls stepped on my toe in the pitch black and boy tHat REaLLY HurT. I yelped and the other 2 started to laugh. We heard voices and breathed a sigh of relief when we recognized it to be another supervisor. We emerged from the toilet giggling, and with me rubbing my toe.

We hurriedly finished cooking our insant noodles and re-heating some leftover food from the morning breakfast, ate, relieved ourselves and headed to our mattresses, stomach filled and hearts grateful that the busiest day was over.

Regional Student Convention 2015: Day 1 

Naomi and I woke up earlier than the rest in my room and we went to meet the principal at 6.30am at the hotel’s reception area together with Tim, another classmate, to buy breakfast for our school contingent. We walked to a nearby coffee shop and bought prata and some rlly sweet milk tea.
 Tired Tim
Reached back at 7.30, ate quickly, put on the school uniform and we all reported to the hotel lobby at 8.15am sharp for the RSC schools registration.

 If im not wrong, we were the first school to register and it went rather smoothly, for me at least. One of our guys had to go and get a hair cut after the dress check but that was that. It was a generally strict process. Skirts below knees, socks must cover the ankle bones, fingernails mustn’t be painted, boys sideburns must be above the ears, girls fringes must be clipped up and hair must be tied up at all times etc. handed in my photographs to be placed in the exhibits to be judged by the judges later on.

 After registration, we went for lunch and we were dying of thirst. There was no drinking water provided in the hotel (sTraNGe) and I had finished all the water I had in my bottle the night before. So we went to the nearby ‘mall’ to buy drinks, then we split into different groups and had lunch. Went back to the hotel aka campus to report back and figure out where the different events would be held during the week and how to get there. Watched the first event of the week: male-physical fitness. Stopped for awhile to cheer on one of the guys from my school before walking away to continue a tour of the campus with Jan. Got up to abit of mischief that led to uneasiness for the next two days but everything was fine after Wednesday. First seating for dinner was at 6.15pm and second was 6.45pm. Night rally began at 7.30pm, and I went on stage to get my first medal: MY ESSAY WRITING. It won me a 4th placing. Jan entered essay writing too she won 6th (the last placing).

Going on stage to get my first medal on the first night rally in the RSC, it felt like it was really a great start.

  1st medal: 4th place for Essay Writing

Pre-Regional Student Convention: Sunday, 23rd August, 2015

Had church in the morning, my mind was all over the place, the excitement all building up.We boarded the coach at aroundd 1.20pm and began our approximately 6 hour journey.


  When we passed the SG and M’sia customs, we ran to the toilets (we were needing to pee so badly  just kidding I don’t know why we even ran but lol) and I didn’t know my bag was unzipped and my pencil case fell out. It was only after I boarded the coach again, one of our guys handed me my stationery bag and asked if it was mine. I was like 😱 yes where did you even find it. He said it dropped from your bag when we were running to the toilet. My heart skipped a beat. My bag unzipped. And my Passport. My. Passport. Was. Inside. I checked frantically and fortunately, thank God, it didn’t fall out. We stopped once for a short toilet break and another time for dinner. We had burgers at Burger King.

Jan, Kat, Naomi and me!

 waiting to board the coach after dinner

  Reached Shaftsbury Serviced Suites at about 7.30pm.

 My roommates, Naomi, Kat, and Jan, were all keen on going for a swim but we had to settle some admin stuff with our supervisor. Okay I’ll admit we were horrible and rushed our rather stressed out supervisor with all the admin stuff we had left undone so that we could go for a swim. We finished it up in like 20 minutes and headed to the pool. We weren’t rly sure if the other schools participating in the RSC were there already so we were pretty grateful for the darkness of the night that partially hid our faces from any curious onlooker peering at a group of laughing girls splashing and jumping into the pool. After the swim, we went back to the room (not before discovering how inconvenient it was because each room was only given one key card that allowed access to the lift lobby, to press the level you wanted to go to, and to open your room door. ONE CARD for a room of 6 people. If you didn’t have the card, you had to run ard and find the person. If the person who had the card was upstairs in the room and you were at the lobby, the person had to come down and pick you up with the key card cus you have no way to press the lift level without the tapping the key card on the card reader.) and we had a shower. Had a brief run through of the next day’s programme with our supervisor and we all slept rather early that night because we all knew the next day was gonna be the Beginning of everything.


    all the girls and female sponsors and supervisors!! 😍